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 Luke Allan
Ursula Cheng
 Carolyn Angelo
Tobias Cook
 Tom Benn
Kirsten Cowie
 Emily Bone
Andrew Denholm
 Sarah Christie
Elizabeth Stewart
 Jack Clark
Eileen Glass
 Edward Keeble
Imogen Scott
 Kerrick Newstead
Anette Fritsen
 Laura C-Harries
Lindsay Grime
 Daisy Dawes
Alison GlanvilleJones
 Sam Elliot
Laura Darling
 Martin Gaston
Gillian Kirkland
 Mary-Caitlin Hentz
Sarah Tanat-Jones
 Kirsty Kelly
Jaimie Lane
 Miranda Jackson
Trine Mangernes
 Ailish McA Green
Lindsay McBirnie
 Gina Mortlock
Lucy McCririck
 Richard O'Brien
Elizabeth Walker
 Vidur Nauriyal
Sophie Newell
 Sophie Playle
Marc Noble
 Kirsty Smellie
Fiona Purves
 Frankie Taylor
Genevieve Ryan
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My name is Varsity, Vess to my friends, and I am a 23 years old aspiring actress. I love the smell of expensive perfumes, luxurious champagne, dry cleaned clothes and newly printed money. Acting is quite a competitive business to be in, you have to stay in good shape in order to beat your rivals and to impress your critics. Strict diet, extensive exercise regime, but it's definitely all worth it. I find I don't really get time to relax as there is always too much to do, too many people to see. Sometimes, when I am in my room I can unwind. That is my sanctuary, where the heels and the make up come off, the fancy clothes are thrown on the floor and I can finally be me. Me. I have almost forgotten who "me" is.
Okay, so my name isn't really Varsity...it's Sarah, Sarah Alton; plain I know. I am actually 27 and am scared of getting old. More than that, I am scared of getting old alone. I fear that no-one will love me, care for me; of course they say it all the time in the business I live in ' love you darling' , but it's all lies. There are a lot of lies in this line of work, I've first hand knowledge. I've told everyone I am happy for as long as I can remember and I am almost starting to believe it myself.
Underneath the external confidence and raucous laugh I am terribly self conscious. Strip me of my expensive clothes and layers of makeup and there is nothing I am truly proud of. All of my material possessions mean nothing to me, the only thing of importance is a small rusted broach that my mother gave me, with her hopeful wish that I would grow up to be someone she could be proud of. At night I lie awake and think of how I stole her heart, frivolous with the love that she pored over me. I think back through the years, searching for the point when I lost myself but it is too far gone to remember.
TEXT by Gina Mortlock
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